back with a bang

mm.. it is after two years I am back to blogging..

life is beautiful and hectic. Proud father of a boy who took all my attention and energy on reaching home. (A safe excuse for not blogging).

Will write about "Fear of death or power of survival"; "Leadership- navigating an uncharted territory"; "identity crisis" very soon.

MAN! THIS WORLD IS NO PLACE FOR 2ND

One thing that was fascinating me while watching the wild animals in Discovery, National Geographic or the History Channel is - The Cruelty of Nature

MAN! THIS WORLD IS NO PLACE FOR 2ND!!

Want proof? Right from the sperm that became you and me. There were millions of other brothers/sisters who could not 'make' it and gone to oblivion.

Nature continuously creates, recreates, destroys, wipes out, makes 'mistakes' (biologists call it mutation) and always puts evolution in gear.

There is place for everyone who changed with the change. Those who could not were replaced.

Compared to wild animals where are we?

We have definite idea about what we are going to eat, drink, where are going to sleep and with whom and THIS HAS CREATED TROUBLE.

We lost our edge. We started to BELIEVE in permanence, stability, security and FUTURE.

I dont know if I am right or not.. all I can say is, we started to think, and we started to disobey nature.

We exploit, recreate environment, get greedy, kill, swindle each other..

The fight for survival has shifted from nature to within humankind itself.

Where is the rat race going? I bet circles...

Whadya say?

Just round the corner

It is good nine months since I blogged last.

Phew! What all changes!!

Got Married, gonna father a child and now just round the corner.

Seated taut, alert, watching events happening around, (so far i was blind i should agree) and getting ready for something important in my life, THIS MOMENT.

Sounds like a movie scene, where commandos are expecting to jump out of a plane into their mission below? Exactly!!

Yeah.. Changes are just round the corner.

I don't know what they are, how they are, but I am certain. They are inevitable.

Will I survive? I WILL.. I will have to..

Do I hv a choice?

Dying Diary -- Pump 1 2 3 breathe in Pump 1 2 3 breathe in

the diary is hibernating.. nothing has been adding up for weeks together

So much I wrote on Itsy Bitsy papers wherever I was, whatever state I was going through.
Somehow, all of them got trashed, for reasons best unknown.. or the reasons I dislike to accept..(complacency, procrastination..)

another thought also comes to me..

shall i delete this page? anyway, there are not thousands of fans to cry, call me up and say, "dont do this, please". :).

it will have a silent burial.. The blog is not going to protest, not going to scream, or shout.. It is just a page!

mm.. Shall I do it!

I better not.. It is upto me to give life to it, make it grow bigger (yawn..).. decorate it with pearls (?!) of wisdom, make the drip into a downpour..

I say to myself "hey man! go home and sleep.. u hv started to yap too much.."


in an empty office
one of the nondescript cubicle
late in the night
only the monitor stares at u,
echoing ur ramblings..

Life goes on elsewhere..
Its me and the pain
of ...
guess what? blogging.. :)

An Open Book

mm.. now friends started to ask, why a diary, that is open for all.. i can think of few criticism as well..
"Boy, you are boasting", "Will you dare to tell EVERYTHING in a blog?".

Let me tell you this. This Blog is mine. I decide what to put up, and what not to put up.

By blogging, I won't hurt the sentiments, privacy of anyone, living or dead. Satisfied?

OK. This does not mean, that this is a watered down version or going to be an absolutely bland page.

Taking inspiration from Mahatma Gandhi, I try to live an open life. Everyone can come, see, and go. Not many (watch out, I did not say any) hidden pages, or blacked out paragraphs.

An open book lifestyle calls for lots of responsibilities, discipline, respect to the society, that I live in and .
a fine sense of balance, maturity and self-righteousness.

I have decided. I am moving ahead. Thatz all...